Arr, the spontaneous, irksome title. 8D *doom* Only a subtle warning that the content of this journal will be rather nonsensical and quite rambly. But carrot pie sounds extremely tasty~ _3_

My deepest apologies once more to everyone and anyone for not being an active artist. D: I do hate myself extravagently for being such a git when it comes to doing anything useful for myself here on DeviantArt or anywhere really. >< I've figured I really am just horrendous at making commitments. O: Same with my Neopets account, where I just stopped trying to make progress of any sort (with my pets mainly) and gradually began avoiding the place
entirely. O: I give up hope too easily! DX I suppose thats possibly it, that i end up feeling i can never be good enough and its not worth it anymore? Gosh thats horrible! D: I really have to change my state of mind, for I really do want to make somthing better of myself and continue doing things i like, like drawing and going on Neopets. :< I simply have to prevent demoralizing and wishing more of myself, which I do alot. >< And with my habit of becomeing quite senseless with many things, in the end it really isn't worth it with no hope to keep one going. O: (<--- Tis such a flexible smiley face, one could use it for everything! XD) So if i were to stop wallowing in my stupidity and actually make a move to work at it and improve myself, i could possibly get somwhere. :V *shrug*

*sigh-ism* I have to really work on organizing my thoughts and self, for that be another complication of mine- that I am quite the disorganized person. X3 Art would be a grand thing to be organized with, seeing i can barely find my own style. X| Switch about madly from different style to the next, trying too hard to draw like somone else, does nothing but smother my own style which has gradually hidden itself away into the depths of my mind. OO: (Egads, the long
sentences XD)

Bah, its just utterly stupid. XB Dont mind my blundering, im just trying to sort things up a tad. :/ By prattleing on like such sure seems to help. XD Ah, but thanks for allowing me to rant. :0 For it makes me feel like im actually putting this journal to good use! XD Venting.. one of the journals many attributes. |3 But i do apologize for anyone who bothered themselves by reading this for its not really for the enjoyment of others, just basically to help me feel expressed in a minute way. :b

Oh, i began this journal on the 7th, (for it twas my birthday) but had a great and terrible battle with my grammar senses, thus being forced to scorn the keyboard and wander away. O: And after such an interval, tis still quite difficult to form words. >O *beats off stupidity with a stick* Gargh.

Apologies, apologies. X| *meanders away back into the shadows*